January 12 , 2009

I believe in not holding back.  There are examples--- both ephemeral and material in the world of how beautiful it is to not hold back ---- the exquisitely made world--- really excellent movies, books, food,  paintings , music , sculptures, architecture--- all show us that it doesn't pay off to hold back. It pays rather  to give it everything that one has within themselves to the piece, the project, the idea, the person ----every time. There is spiritual, creative and intellectual return for NOT holding back--- for pouring oneself out  because  what happens  is like the investment mold that is poured with molten bronze as the wax leaves  from the investment the  bronze fills all empty spaces  and is  new-- the space within is filled --- renewed. I believe in giving everything to what there is to be done, to imagine, to interact --I believe in the value of opulence-- the merit of the over done --- the weight of weightless beauty both in feeling and heart. I believe in the rushing toward and treading in where both fools and angels fear --- for the sake of  giving in--- giving over---giving everything in the moment, in the piece, in that conversation---- in that life time. I believe also in building up-- in moving toward--- filling up again so as to give again. I believe the reserves are renewable as long as they are given the time to regenerate, rebuild, revive , so as to  not remain reserved,  to not remain on hold but to be given over again.